Letters I've written to Buffy the Vampire Slayer. By Barbara Holm
Tuesday, December 2, 2014
I'm like Spike after he came back from the dead (I guess the second time?). I feel like I'm fading from everyone and everything, unable to touch or interact. However, I didn't get to do anything really rad like save the world in a super self sacraficial heroic way. How come that prophecy thing for sure isn't about Spike? The idea of destiny seems so cheesy in Angel, but that's kinda how I feel lately, like my entire life has been decided and that it's futile for me to even be trying because I'll never get to "be a real boy" to use Spike's phrasing.