Friday, October 31, 2014

Dear Buffy,

Hey Bb! Happy Halloweeeeeeen!

Halloween is supposed to be the one day of the year (in the Buffyverse) when demons take the night off from inflecting evils. If we're going to carry this metaphor into my life (as I always do) that would mean tonight is the night in which all of my inner demons (anxiety, depression, struggling with comedy, boys, friendships, etc) chill the heck out. Well, we'll see! I think I love Halloween because I love the escapism of dressing up and I love watching scary movies and thinking about ghosts and goblins and anything in the fantasy realm, because it takes me away from my own life. I love ghosts and vampires and witches because when they're around everyone is as scared and anxious as I am EVERY DAY EVER. I have to go to LA next week and audition for this thing,... and I'm second guessing all of my powers and abilities. I feel like I'm battling Glory, and I can't beat her, but I have to keep fighting, or quit.

love, Babs

Monday, October 13, 2014

Dear Buffy,

I met a new hot male character! Not that this show is all about the love interests; it's primarily about me and how I kick ass while striving to grow up in a crazy confusing world. But the male characters are so totes dreamy! Can't a girl fight the apocalypse and go out on a date every once in a while too? Remember when you thought Angel wasn't into your looks because he was used to girls who put a lot of effort in, so you tried really hard to be fancy and then you accidentally got turned into your costume on Halloween? That's kinda how I feel; like I'm sure this dude is used to hot babes and not, well... but then I remember that Angel said he was much more attracted to you because you're so smart and interesting and weird and fun and that's the most important thing. Wow, sorry for bringing up Angel so much. You're better than him. Boys are weird. Vampires are weirder. They kinda suck.

Okay... um...
love you lots,

Wednesday, October 8, 2014

Dear Buffy,

Good morning! Yes, I'm up before noon! I'm such a Willow! Actually lately I've been feeling kinda more like Giles felt in Season 4 when Buffy started spending all of her time with Riley and the Initiative and Dr. Rude Walsh. I feel like totes out of touch, like my art is now irrelevant, but it's not like I can go back to England. (They don't even have burritos there.) I work so hard on my jokes and my stage presence and my writings, but I feel like everyone's just like "yaaaawn, we get it, lady, feminism fairies blah blah." I just moved into a new place, which is exactly what you are doing right now in the comics. It is exciting; it feels grown up, or like I'm cosplaying as a grown up.

Blah blah,
love you,

Thursday, October 2, 2014

Dear Buffy,

Hi B,

I feel like everything is simultaneously falling apart and coming together. Like one minute I'm falling down and practically totaling my bike while losing my debit card, and the next minute my comedy career is doing really well. Sometimes I wonder what we sacrafice for our callings. You put so much of yourself into slaying, and I put so much of me into comedy, that is there any wonder I don't have the energy to clean my room or not be drunk? WHO HAS THE TIME TO NOT BE DRUNK WHEN THERE ARE DEMONS AFOOT? Maybe I just need to be invisible for a day. 

love B,