Dear Buffy,

I'm feeling so overwhelmed right now. I have to move out of my place in the next two days and I have to figure my life out financially, career wise, and emotionally. I just want to be a little kid who watches sci fi tv and plays with stuffed animals but now there's like bills and papers and stuff... I wish I had a Giles to help me out with that sort of thing. I could use a good watcher. Or I wish I was a slayer so I could be like "adulthood? pish posh, I have to save the world!" And that attitude is why we both have annoying day jobs siiiigh.

The Spike stuff in the comic is pretty interesting. I like him more than Angel; I don't even give a shit if that makes me a monster!!!

You know how the demon dimensions and your dimensions are kinda eroding upon each other? That's how I feel about my happy sweet positive side and my hard working comedy side.

lots of love,
Babs

Dear Buffy,

Hey... Feeling so lost and listless right now. Like without a direction. That's a good thing about being a slayer (and/or a comedian sometimes) you feel like you have a real purpose. Whenever you could have given up, you knew you had to keep saving the world, because it was your calling. I just feel so weak and unfunny that I feel like maybe this isn't my calling. Maybe I'm just not cut out for it. Maybe they can make a robot Babs to live my life for me and I could go hide in a cave or secret house like you did a couple months ago in the comic. What if they already did make a robot Babs? What if I AM the robot Babs but I'm programmed to think I'm the real Babs? ... Oh, no!

love ya, B!
Barbara

Dear Buffy,

Hey B! I had such a not shitty day yesterday, weird, right? I had a lot of fun at the open mic because my friend Derek was there. It's kinda like when you're all "Oh man I have to fight the apocalypse... but at least my buddy Willow's by my side!" Friendship is really important. I hope you and Willow get back in the same dimension soon. I know how hard it is to be separated by different planes of existence and the forces of evil.

Good luck with that techy guy... I know it's all business and saving the world on a daily basis, but have some fun too!

love, Babs

Dear Buffy,

Hey B, I know I haven't written a lot lately. I guess for a while I was sorta feeling like I didn't need to write to you, like I was doing okay with my friends and comedy and life, and I didn't need to rely on the mystical slayer to be my hero. Thank goodness that hogwash was just a phase! Now, we can get back to being BFFs!!!! Things are going okay on my end, traveling a bit for comedy which is always nice. I like a little bit of escapism (surprise) Did you kinda feel that way at all when you switched bodies with Faith? I bet it felt scary but kinda like a vacation. I wish I could just take a little break from being me sometimes.

Anywhoodles! I wish you and Willow respectively both the best of luck with restoring magic to this universe. I could definitely do with some!

love, Babs