Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Dear Buffy,

I have so many feelings! I just watched the Thanksgiving episode. It might be my least favorite. NOT because of you or anything anyone did. Everyone was beautiful and brilliant. Maybe I just hate Thanksgiving. I never look forward to national bulimic day coming back up. (Pun so intended.) Spike is so layered and weird. I am really developing sympathy for him, despite the fact that he did such horrible deeds and he is such a pig. I guess, I myself have done really horrible things and I'm kinda hoping that now I'm starting to kinda get redemption. I'm working on being a better person and I think I'm learning from my mistakes, but it's hard because I'm not as strong as I'd like to be to fully not make the same mistakes again.

Anywhoodles. Miss you tons. Hold Willow for me, okay? I know it doesn't seem like as big as stopping an apocalypse but it still hurts. When a guy leaves but it's not you, it's him, but it sorta feels like it's definitely you.... I know Greg Behrendt (He's Just Not That Into You) would have feelings to say about that... Gosh that hurts. HUG HER HUG HER HUG HER okay.

Miss you, B!
love, Babs

Sunday, February 3, 2013

Dear Buffy,

Hey B! I'm having kinda a hard couple of days, or weeks, or maybe a month. I'm watching reruns to help me... But it's kinda weird because we know each other so well, it's almost not escapism anymore. It's like, oh Buffster is fighting a giant monster while a wiccan gets her heart broken and a vampire drowns his emotions in violent outbursts; this is almost TOO relateable. I just watched "Beer Bad." I totally underestimated that episode. Usually I think it's dumb. I'm kinda going through some boy involved heart hurting time so it really hit the spot. We're so conditioned by romantic comedies to want that happy ending. But is it happy? I really craved that Mr. Darcy-esque scene where Parker realized he made a mistake hurting you and begged for your forgiveness, and then you hit him over the head with a stick. Perfect. You're an inspiration to women, heroes, and people who dislike tired plot tropes.

Miss you. I really need a girlfriend to be a big spoon sometimes.

love, Babs.