Last night and the night before I had a dream that I was on a date with Spike. I think he had his soul at this point, but it was maybe in the post saving the world situation because he was cocky and stuff. On one of the dates it was Valentine's Day and it was a super fancy classy vampire bar (I know, weird, right?) full of witches and demons and I fit right in even though I was clearly very shy and inexperienced in the black arts, but also in social situations and dating. I'm not inexperienced in sex, just dating. (I mean, it's not like you were a pro at it when you guys hooked up...) At one point during the date Spike said, "Oh, don't look now, Pet, but your ex is here and he brought his trollop. I'm so sorry, love. Do you want to make out to make him jealous?" And then we had a steamy make out but there was no ex there whatsoever! So fricking cheeky!
Tuesday, December 2, 2014
I'm like Spike after he came back from the dead (I guess the second time?). I feel like I'm fading from everyone and everything, unable to touch or interact. However, I didn't get to do anything really rad like save the world in a super self sacraficial heroic way. How come that prophecy thing for sure isn't about Spike? The idea of destiny seems so cheesy in Angel, but that's kinda how I feel lately, like my entire life has been decided and that it's futile for me to even be trying because I'll never get to "be a real boy" to use Spike's phrasing.
love you lots,