Dear Buffy,

Hey B,

I'm watching helpless right now, and that's so how I feel emotionally tonight. Someone said one mean thing to me, and I just fell apart. Passive aggressive jabs from certain people (dark slayers?) can pierce the heart so much more than from anyone else. I feel like when certain types of people hate me, it can feel like hundreds of people do... it feels like someone waved a certain crystal in front of me and zapped me of all my super powers, and I'm just trying to struggle through life, well, powerless... But you still beat the demon, even without your powers. I hope to one day be as strong as you.

love you,
B

Dear Buffy

Hey dudette! How is everything? My life is going okay, kinda fun, just focusing on comedy/slaying. I've been defeated by several comedy demons/ vampires this month, but I've also won a bunch of battles too. I've won some on my own and I've had some scoobies help me out and both ways it's been really fun. Last night I watched the swim team episode, which I super love! Sometimes I think inside a lot of people is a scary fish monster clawing to come out.

Stay peppy,
Babs

Dear Buffy,

Hey B!

My life is kinda in a whirlwind right now. I don't have any money, like you after your mom passed... Dude I don't know how you survived and supported Dawn on minimum wage fast food salary. I am kinda doing a minimum wage call center job right now and struggling to do work and comedy. It's stressful, like trying to balance slaying with working and then friendship on top of it.

I guess I'm really proud of you for getting it all together and trying to have it all. I really respect you going for it with Spike. I wish I liked myself enough to make super positive life decisions and handle all my slaying and grown up responsibilities. What are taxes?

Give Giles a hug.
love, B

Dear Buffy,

Hey B! Your new comic book that came out this month was SO funny and intense. It was all about love, which kinda... like I'm not in a super great place with love right now. I think it might be all a conspiracy invented by the robo Illuminati to keep us all occupied so they can replace us with drones like in the episode with the scary eggs took over everyone's brains. I feel like what Dawn is going through right now is totally something that happens in a lot of relationships, where for some reason (magically or otherwise) you just kinda outgrow your feelings. And what is going to happen with Spike?!? I like living vicarously through your romances. Great issue. Kinda made me feel a bit lonely.

My soul is showing...
Babs

Dear Buffy,

Lately I feel kinda season sixy... Like this dude is kinda messing with my emotions like the trio did when they tested you. I wish I could explain away some of this anxiety and craziness by blaming it on otherworldy phenomena interefence, but the truth is: I'm a hot mess and I am kinda lonely and weird and I don't relate well to other people. I wish I could be like Spike and be okay with the fact that I don't relate well to others and just be a loner, but the truth is, as much as I am very alone; I desperately wish to be a Buffy or a Willow, someone with scoobies.

love,
Babs

Dear Buffy,

Last night and the night before I had a dream that I was on a date with Spike. I think he had his soul at this point, but it was maybe in the post saving the world situation because he was cocky and stuff. On one of the dates it was Valentine's Day and it was a super fancy classy vampire bar (I know, weird, right?) full of witches and demons and I fit right in even though I was clearly very shy and inexperienced in the black arts, but also in social situations and dating. I'm not inexperienced in sex, just dating. (I mean, it's not like you were a pro at it when you guys hooked up...) At one point during the date Spike said, "Oh, don't look now, Pet, but your ex is here and he brought his trollop. I'm so sorry, love. Do you want to make out to make him jealous?" And then we had a steamy make out but there was no ex there whatsoever! So fricking cheeky!

love,
Babs

Dear Buffy,

I'm like Spike after he came back from the dead (I guess the second time?). I feel like I'm fading from everyone and everything, unable to touch or interact. However, I didn't get to do anything really rad like save the world in a super self sacraficial heroic way. How come that prophecy thing for sure isn't about Spike? The idea of destiny seems so cheesy in Angel, but that's kinda how I feel lately, like my entire life has been decided and that it's futile for me to even be trying because I'll never get to "be a real boy" to use Spike's phrasing.

love you lots,

B