Dear Buffy,

Hey Buff,

I've been struggling lately with social stuff, but I'm trying really hard. When I was younger I always had amazing friends, and I felt strong and confident, like I was destined to help others- like you. Now it's almost my birthday, and I'm turning older like Giles years old. Now I'm more like Dawn, surrounded by a crowd of amazing, strong, super, magickal friends, and I'm the weak link, the damsel who needs saving, the zeppo. It's hard to force myself to leave the house and be social when I don't feel as if I deserve it. I'm stuck in my own shyness like everyone was stuck in your house after Dawn's wish to Halfrek that no one could leave the house.

If the apocalypse happens, beep me.
Babs

Dear Buffy,

Hey B!

I feel so lonely and stuff lately. Part of that is my own fault. I'm isolating myself, like you did in season seven when you didn't invite your friends in, like they were vampires. I feel like I'm hiding inside myself, like my body is my own dark crypt and I'm hiding from the sunlight because it would fry me. The dark thing about it is, I'm kinda enjoying the isolation. I hope I don't start craving blood anytime.

love you,
B

Dear Buffy,

Hey B!

Last night I watched the episode "Consequences" right after "Bad Girls" where you are trying to cover for Faith and help her. You're such a great friend. I feel like I'm kinda a combination of both you and Faith. I'm obviously not like Faith morally (well I hope that's obvious) but the feeling of being lost and excluded and like I don't have any friends. I'm like half lonely insecure slayer, half sweet, spunky, striving to do the right thing at all costs slayer (that one's you.)

love you, B
B

Dear Buffy,

Hey B,

I'm watching helpless right now, and that's so how I feel emotionally tonight. Someone said one mean thing to me, and I just fell apart. Passive aggressive jabs from certain people (dark slayers?) can pierce the heart so much more than from anyone else. I feel like when certain types of people hate me, it can feel like hundreds of people do... it feels like someone waved a certain crystal in front of me and zapped me of all my super powers, and I'm just trying to struggle through life, well, powerless... But you still beat the demon, even without your powers. I hope to one day be as strong as you.

love you,
B

Dear Buffy

Hey dudette! How is everything? My life is going okay, kinda fun, just focusing on comedy/slaying. I've been defeated by several comedy demons/ vampires this month, but I've also won a bunch of battles too. I've won some on my own and I've had some scoobies help me out and both ways it's been really fun. Last night I watched the swim team episode, which I super love! Sometimes I think inside a lot of people is a scary fish monster clawing to come out.

Stay peppy,
Babs

Dear Buffy,

Hey B!

My life is kinda in a whirlwind right now. I don't have any money, like you after your mom passed... Dude I don't know how you survived and supported Dawn on minimum wage fast food salary. I am kinda doing a minimum wage call center job right now and struggling to do work and comedy. It's stressful, like trying to balance slaying with working and then friendship on top of it.

I guess I'm really proud of you for getting it all together and trying to have it all. I really respect you going for it with Spike. I wish I liked myself enough to make super positive life decisions and handle all my slaying and grown up responsibilities. What are taxes?

Give Giles a hug.
love, B

Dear Buffy,

Hey B! Your new comic book that came out this month was SO funny and intense. It was all about love, which kinda... like I'm not in a super great place with love right now. I think it might be all a conspiracy invented by the robo Illuminati to keep us all occupied so they can replace us with drones like in the episode with the scary eggs took over everyone's brains. I feel like what Dawn is going through right now is totally something that happens in a lot of relationships, where for some reason (magically or otherwise) you just kinda outgrow your feelings. And what is going to happen with Spike?!? I like living vicarously through your romances. Great issue. Kinda made me feel a bit lonely.

My soul is showing...
Babs